So pleased that you are recovering Terry, but not getting back to normal. Normal is a changing state of being and your painful and dislocating experience has shifted the focus of your consciousness. Life will be more vibrant and you will feel more alive - for a while.
In time, you may return to your rehearsed routine of living - unless you follow your feelings and embrace this new shift, allowing yourself to continue to be utterly enraptured by the wonder of being alive. Don’t worry Terry, I am not about to get religious. Just want to wish you well and hope that your life’s journey is enriched by having come close to contemplating your mortality.